I Must

I was once tall standing,

but now I'm wilting away.

You should have told me I wasn't enough,

maybe it would've caused less pain.

Maybe I wouldn't be writing you this.

Can we go back to how we first met?

I could see right through those walls you built up,

yet I regret ever tearing them down.

I looked at you with the intent of making you more than a friend,

yet I regret that too.

So, I waved, a small hello to say.

That's where the mistakes were made.

You looked back,

red in the face,

wondering how someone like me would want to talk to you.

But, you were right,

why did I even start anything?

You waved back

and my heart grew content.

I smiled,

though I wish I hadn't.

You didn't trust my intentions.

You were broken and I was beyond repair.

You'd think I was the one with the trust issues,

but it was you.

You were so used to the emotional pain,

it took you hurting me to realize I was here to stay.

It was my fault because I let you.

But I knew that was the only way you could trust me.

I let you hurt me

no wonder you haven't stopped.

It's hard needing to let you go

because I don't want to.

I don't!

But you caged me

and now I'm setting myself free.

I hope you can forgive me.