I’m Heading For Heartache, I’m Heading For Heartbreak

I’m heading for heartache, I’m heading for heartbreak,

My body expecting a tornado of tragic emotions,

The day is near, I feel, I fear,

But you’ve no idea of my devotions.

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The call will come, one day, maybe too soon,

My breath will explode from my lungs,

The news that terrifies me, no stopping it at all,

The torture will be tenfold, due to the cruel tongues.

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The future is determined, no need to predict,

There’s a time that’ll stop for no man,

The tears will flow when someone lets me know,

And the shock will damn near kill me — will I survive, I’m not sure I can.

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My world will tilt, them flip upside down,

Never to right itself again,

Sure the pain will ease, I’ll get up off my knees,

But that torment will always reign.

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The regrets will knock me flat, like I’ve been hit by a bat,

And I’ll ride a roller coaster of emotions trying to kill,

My heart will explode but will anybody know,

How to help me gain my equilibrium, step off the emotional treadmill.

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Just the thought tears my heart to shreds,

As it bashes itself stupid against my chest,

The world will be darker, the sun will no longer shine,

As they lay your body to rest.

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I won’t be there, not that they’ll ever care,

But I’ll be where you can find me, just look down, you’ll see,

The river of tears will awash, never to end, oh gosh,

The pain for the rest of my life will be beastly.

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I wish, I dream, but it’ll never happen it seems,

Do you know how it is I feel,

Will you ever forgive, the decisions I made to live,

The love I have for you, that they did steal?

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The day will come, I will unravel and come undone,

I can only hope there are years before the unending tears,

And that you understand, this was never my plan,

To live this way for all of these years.

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I’ve always been here, but unable to live near,

For reasons you surely must face, the faults that are placed,

Are not all mine, if you’re truthful you’ll find,

We both need to taste, the pain, the heartache, the years we waste.

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I’m heading for heartache, I’m heading for heartbreak,

Will it be tomorrow, a week, a month, a year, that I live with the fear,

I suck at goodbyes, I struggle when those I love dies,

But with you, the sheer pain will destroy me, torment me and never disappear!

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