I hate myself sometimes

I hate myself sometimes, well, to be honest, most times. I despise the way I say what I feel; instead of think before I relay. I fucking loathe how my condition makes me feel this way. I spew hurtful things when I can't efficiently manage my emotions in a better way. Ergo, they end up saying to me, precisely what they think of me. Articulated with Spartan-like force in the most Achillean of tones, which cut so deeply, I felt the blood from the wound sting down to my bones.

And I fell silent.

Even the misfiring neurons in my head went quiet.

©I.M. xo

(MMXX)