I Didn't Want to Say Goodbye.

They say that

it was all for my own good.

They say that

I was so much better afterward.

They say that

I should feel a thousand pounds lighter

without you by my side.

But,

if that was true,

why don't I feel that way?

Why don't I feel

like doing what I did

was for my own good?

Why don't I feel

better now that you're gone?

Why do I not feel

a thousand pounds lighter

without you by my side?

If what they all have said

was true,

why don't I feel better

about doing what I've done?

We weren't good for each other;

I get that,

I do.

We weren't soulmates;

I understand that.

But,

we used to be something.

At one point,

we were each other's

perfect halves.

I saw my future with you,

and only you;

I'm sure,

at one point,

so did you.

They say that

it was all for my own good;

that I'd be so much better

without you.

They say that

I was so much better afterward;

that I looked healthier,

or seemed different.

They say that

I should feel a thousand pounds lighter

without you by my side;

that I would feel as if,

without you by my side,

I'd want to feel a thousand pounds lighter.

At one point,

you were my soulmate;

my knight in shining armor.

We used to be all

we could ever think about.

All we'd talk about was

our futures;

our love for each other;

unity amongst marriage,

just to seal the deal.

But,

eventually,

that was the end;

our unity had slowly

drifted apart;

my knight in shining armor

was far ahead,

trotting away from my reach.

What was once forever,

slowly turned into heartbreak.

I never wanted to

say goodbye;

honest,

I didn't.

I never wanted us

to go our separate ways;

but we had no other choice.

So,

I have to move on.

I have to accept that

this was for my own good,

as much as yours.

I have to start to

accepting that you're gone,

just as you do for me.

I have to let go of those thousands of pounds

I had when you were by my side.

I never wanted to have to say goodbye,

but I did.

No amount of reversal can change that.

But,

I'll never forget you,

and I hope you won't ever forget me.

At one time,

we were soulmates;

we were all we could ever dream of.

You'll always hold a space in my heart,

I can promise you that.