I didn't see me

Days have passed, it has rained and some sunshine had come by, and I couldn't feel anything. My body grew, my arms, exploded, my tights and my belly emerged like a volcano, and I didn't see me. I continued to get bigger, to eat without conscious, control or even a paused. I didn't see me. Years passed and I lost me..... I lost my connection between mind and body and I lost myself to the darkness daily routine. I became a machine, just doing, just making things without feeling, without creativity. I didn't see me and I couldn't feel myself neither.

I lost me, I lost you and I lost my sense of life. I didn't see me and I blamed you, I blamed my job, I blamed everyone, I blamed my life but didn't blame the fact that I got disconnected.

Now in between limbos, and universes, different versions of myself, I work with those traumas, those unsafe feelings and those rejections experiences, to try to save myself from not seeing me again.