I Did Not Ask For This

I lay in the comfort of my bed. With time ticking over and I can't pause the loop in my head. It's late. The struggle of AM is here to follow. I didn't ask for this.

Concentrated on my job. There is so much to be done. I can feel the shadow cast over me. The surge of panic about to make it's route. Here we go. More time lost. I didn't ask for this.

Keeping myself busy, burning fuel with money I don’t have all to avoid the pressure of being alone in my head. I didn’t ask for this.

The sleepless nights and awaiting the fate of my panic because my personality was mistaken for an opportunity. I didn’t ask for this.

Here I am alone with a thought, a endless time loop while you go about your day. I didn’t ask for this in fact I said stop. I don’t want to justify your actions though I know you have no feel of guilt.

I did not ask for this.