I Came To See You

I think if you kissed me

I surely then would die

A broken-hearted bird

That spreads its wings and flys

Life seems meaningless

Why should I even try?

Ashes to Ashes, dust to dust

my tears form mud as I cry

I came

I came to see you

and instead

you never came

I didn't come for your fame

or fortune

No ill gotten

gain

I came to steal a hug

the way some steal a kiss

not because it was forbidden

But because I can't handle this

What is this?

This

This is my life.

I am sad

Some days start sad

Some days end sad

Sometimes in between

But still

I'm sad

I came to see you

Because I need you

Because even if I hurt you

I love you

In a way I can't

love myself

I came to see you

Because outside

I smile

But inside

I cannot stand

I try to walk and I tremble

because life holds me down

I came to see you

Because without you, I hurt myself

And I told you

and then

you were sad

And that killed me

I came to see you

Because I was afraid

that without you to hold me together

I would lose myself

and never be the same again

I came to see you

Because I wanted a hug

I wanted you to hold me

like you'd never see me again

I wanted you to hold me

like if you let go

I would shatter into a million pieces

and fall

like sand in an hourglass

But you didn't come

You saw me

And you stayed away

Was it because you remembered?

Did you remember that I was hurting?

Do you see me differently now?

I deserve it

And I came

And I waited

And I waited

And I waited

But you never came.