I Bask In Severed Moonlight
In search of sparks
Why is it that our inhibitions fade with the sun?
By night I crave nothing but the perversion of purity
my desires become need, my sins make miracles
I am the smoke in search of fire
each promise immolated by dusk
I am death in search of life
my only salvation destruction
Why do we pretend we are protected by our silence?
I lie in wait of a sea of words to carry me out of myself
in wait of a destiny no one bothered to prophesy
I lie
with our memories on a bed of light
& trace the cracks our bodies left
I lie when I forget them, forget to lie when I remember
how the mask they sculpted became my only face
how the reflection became more real than the reflected
Why do I always mean the opposite
of what I ask from you, an ocean
for a volcano, a lifetime for a moment?
Why do we only ever return to pain
to the ones who hurt us
even as they promise
never to hurt us again?
How many times did they light gas &
pour fire down our throats like medicine?
How many times have we given up
& discarded our own good intentions
stripped the stars from our ceilings
& the spines out of our own backs?
Ask me what I've done to you
& I won't believe you
Ask me who I'm trying to be
& I'll tell you everything I'm not
Ask me when my actions will align with my words &
I'll answer when your heavy heart evolves into forever
When did we devour the light
unfold the throbbing walls &
skim clouds like warm cream
How did the noise become music
& lure us to collective insanity
bodies taking bodies home
Where did the bloodlust trickle out
& settle deep like nuclear mines
Who did you unravel into a river
of cosmos sucking in your soul
Which being, whose cruelty, what hope
taught us beauty, cast the children
in flames until their awestruck faces
peeled away to reveal our own
Within us the answers cast shadows
& loom like breathless sunsets
I buried the light inside the eyes
of those that never truly saw me
the friction of our jagged lives
spit sparks igniting frozen memory
This firelight eats away the pain
until my wounds begin to smolder
leaking smoke the shape of poetry
Who am I to say which light is real
the wick the bush the filament
the moon the sun the battered love
All we knew was how to extinguish
every dream we dared to make real
This is how we bred the darkness
This is how the angels fall
Strike a match against my lips &
I'll show you how to revive it all
About the Creator
Dr. Faizan
Psychiatrist in my last year of residency.
Writer who has been writing, publishing, and performing poetry for more than a 12 years.
Budding musician working on a spoken word / rap / trip hop album.
Jetsetter who has lived in 6 countries.
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