I Am Loose, Spinning

First there was Excalibur

He remains firm

Immovable by just a man like myself.

But I wait for the day his hero comes -

I know there is more for him and more for me.

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Then I collided with the Milky Way

She teased

Withdrew

Left me clueless and spinning in a vacuum -

She's destructive in her beauty

But I caught a glimpse and oh do I want more.

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Some time passed.

I thought I saw Excalibur's saviour

His release

They were burning molten steel

Melting into wood and cloth and I saw their sights but I was blind

They left Excalibur behind -

A hero of many

They led me somewhere new.

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In this new land I dug for scraps

I found gold.

She didn't know her value

I found so much beauty and worth in her golden words

Some words I can only listen to

And try my lowly man's best to cherish.

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But I'm a selfish and abandoned soul

I want gold and I want more -

I want steel

And

Though she's far

I want the Milky Way in my arms.

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A house of gold I might just get

And a suit of steel

To borrow then shed.

I know I'll never cherish these as much as I should

But my god I wish I could.

But wanderlust still returns on days I can't foretell

And my warped and ravenous chaos craves the Milky Way as well.

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And while I'm more than happy to see Excalibur flourish

And to watch gold from across an ocean as she watches back

I'm scared -

I'm scared steel's heat will burn me out

And I fear the Milky Way will lose her light

Forget her momentum

Tease me

Then snuff me out again.

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