how does it feel?

How does it feel

To have the brightest smile

But the least attention?

The loudest, highest, happiest laugh -

But not a single echoing smile?

I couldn't say how it feels,

To think about the world so boldly

Without anyone to talk to.

I'll remind you of how it feels

To speak words of wasted voice

Just so someone, anyone can hear them.

It is a brutal everyday beating

Where their words mean nothing

Kindness,

Community,

Love.

Unconditional kindness,

A welcoming community

Life lived with love.

Oh, I'll say it once more,

How does it feel

To have no one

To be bitten back by the dogs you thought wouldn't hunt you?

To watch their voices turn away from you

Their eyes flutter in disgust at you

Your inhuman, aching heart

Bleeding for attention only.

Ingenuine words,

And greedy love

Unwelcomed strangers

And judging eyes

How does it feel to look at them and see what I see?

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