How

How could you leave me,

After all the promises of staying forever.

And how can you crush me,

When you said that you’d never hurt me.

How do you throw us away like we were nothing?

Like I was nothing.

After you told me we were everything.

Was it all fake to you?

Were you just joking around?

Was I just something that satisfied your needs?

I can’t figure it out,

But I blame myself.

I got attached.

I let you become the most important thing in my life,

And I was more scared of losing you than anything.

I can’t even hear your name without sobbing,

Without shaking.

I’m afraid to sleep at night.

Because everytime I close my eyes,

All I see is you.

You telling me you love me.

You leaning in to kiss me.

You with your arm around me.

You holding me close.

You saying my name.

You smiling at me.

You laughing with me.

You walking into my house for the first time.

You sitting in my yard waiting for me to come out.

You on my computer screen while we talked.

You messaging me.

You holding my hand.

And every time I close my eyes,

I can’t help but open them with tears falling out.

I’m afraid to go anywhere.

Because if I see you,

I know I’m going to break down.

And I don’t want you to see how weak I truly am.