Homeless

Fuck anyone who extends help for their own ego. You are not a good person, if you are only doing it to validate that you are good. Causing more harm, with power dynamics, control and soft threats of taking away what's offered for noncomplying with arbitrary rules that aren't even verbalized. Passive aggressive escalating to irritation, to ignoring to slamming doors and causing damage to physical property. Verbal outbursts. Violently shaking. Communicating boundaries of intolerance to this abusive behavior. Went from losing housing, to losing a friend. Accepting help when you are vulnerable opens up doors for cyclical abuse. That I am no longer tolerating. Despite unstable housing, setting firm boundaries has helped me raise my self worth. I will keep trusting. I won’t let one piece of shit person set me back. Because I now trust myself to handle explosive behavior and in the face of losing everything, I am not losing my mind and bending to someone’s whim or control. I think within this situation. I’ve found myself. My values, my voice. And I don’t give a shit of the consequences because I am nobody’s fucking toy.