Home Arrest
To my mother
Every time I have been there
The walls were empty, the fridge was full
Even if my parents
Had a separate one
So why on earth
I had no rights to any freedom?
With the door open to my mum’s bedroom vis-à-vis
She heard every sound
From my room
I’m glad that I spoke in the foreign language
At least she could not follow all of it
My love affairs, broken relationships
Anyway, it was all my experience
That I never even wanted
And yet it has been given to me
Lying there and begging me to take it
With all the males willing to decide my fate
It wasn’t right, I know
The same way my mum wanted to decide
What kind of life I should lead
Using her empathy skills
Kindness and a sense of security
But with no hope
To change my state of mind
Years without new thoughts, all I had
Was music, books, films, no friends around
Just a faint feeling
About suspicious stability
What if they both died
In a car accident, without a plan
‘Cause death never chooses, wrapping us up
With all the thorns, thunderstorms, tricks
And we believe
We will oppose it for as long as we can
I’m glad I found my own ground
Somewhere else
Where I can feel more at home
Where I can buy my own coffee and tea
Where all worries disappear
Whilst I don’t think about the past
Just holding the future in my hands
Wide open
For new and newer opportunities
Which will surely come one day
I just have to be patient
And let new thoughts arise
Amidst challenging times
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I’m too big to fit in your fridge, mum
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22 September 2021
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