Hidden

Whispers force themselves to be heard

While retaining an elegant tone

Never ceasing to Remind me day-to-day

That I'll always be alone

Invisible eyes glare as I drown in my mind

A stern hand pushing down on my back

The demon that kills me every day

From the serotonin I was told that I lack

Three. My number of prescription medicines,

The doctor says to help my anxiety

"These may cause suicidal thoughts..."

Well at least one person didn't lie to me.

The sun is shining, Can we go outside?

There is so much I would like to do

But here's the reasons why you're in danger

Well... We can wait inside here too...

It's fear that finds holes to slither in

But today, I am fine, I swear!

Let's go out and do something fun!

Oh.. You just want me to sit.. Right there.

Trapped, I feel with no way to speak

I am screaming but no sound escapes

Redirecting the pain is okay just once...

Wow... look at all the cuts I can make...

If my smiles edge loose motivation

And every one asks what's wrong

How do I explain that depression holds my strings?

And I simply must dance along

Two panic attacks today

When will this suffering cease?

When can i say that I have control?

When will my medication decrease?

Oh how I miss going on car rides

I want to go out and look at the stars

But all the unknown sets the panic off

Time to take these Xanax bars

Sometimes I only want to be like the rain

And wash away all imperfection

As fun as that sounds I still turn around

And am stuck with the same reflection

But like a sunflower I'll learn to grow

Through storms to face the light

Because as hard as life is I will survive

And know that I'll be alright