Hey Addicted Me

Hey Addicted Me,

I hate that you're part of me

That we share the same body

You get to have all your fun

And disappear when it's all done

You never stick by my side

From the consequences, you run and hide

Back to the shadows, is where you go

When the shame and guilt take their tow

I'm left to clean up all the mess

From all the pain and the stress

That you...we...cause and create

I'm out of control and in a state

You cast a shadow over me

The me I want to be

The me I used to be

The me I still can be

When you take the wheel

There's not a lot I feel

When you fully have control

Black is the colour of my soul

I am the king of deceit and disloyalty

I lie, I cheat, I look out only for me

I hurt and rip to shreds all around me

I really hate that you're part of me

Me without you is happy, loyal and kind

Me without you has a little peace of mind

Me without you is funny, loving, and free

Me without you is the me I want to be

So that's the me I'm going to try to be

Yours Sincerely,

Clean (for now) Me

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