You wake up every morning feeling worthless.
You can’t do anything right.
Everyone would be better off without you.
You can’t seem to shake the burden you carry on your back.
What’s wrong with you?
You end up at a friend's house.
Someone new is there.
You feel a connection with them.
It’s like they can see right through you.
They say they know someone who you would enjoy meeting.
They introduce you to Her.
She's intense, but so tempting.
You go for it.
Bliss.
She is unimaginable, uncontrollable bliss.
You finally fit in somewhere with Her.
She gives you what you have been longing for.
The negative thoughts halt.
You're happy.
That’s all that matters, right?
The moments with Her are so euphoric.
But the moments without Her…
It's never been this dark before.
It’s fine.
Your mother is upset.
You watch the friends she brought with Her turn into something evil.
Your stomach gnaws at you.
Your head pounds.
Your skin crawls.
You need Her.
You don’t know how long this has been going on anymore.
Everything is a blur.
No one recognizes you.
But she has always been there for you.
Who are you?
She has taken you so far away.
Everything feels so ugly without Her.
You want to give in.
This would be the best way to go.
Painless.
Your mother loves you.
Your children need you.
Your family cries for you.
But the pain.
You're scared.
You can’t let Her win.
How do you begin to let Her go?
About the Creator
Rayelle Paulson
Rayelle and her husband live in Ohio with their three children. She enjoys her family, food, and deep conversations. Find her on Pinterest.
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