Baby Blue does no justice to the Indigo that seeps into the arteries
Of my neck, frost bite burning and burning into my lungs until
It folds me over in my sheets, knuckles white in a grasp that
Longs for a past
Intangible.
Heaving heavy to purge it out,
Capillaries drown where they long for
Bare chests in 2008 slip and slide heat,
And monster truck shows,
And cornflower
Nurseries.
Pastel Pink hides it’s venom under a sleeping bag,
Pulling me by my back length hair dipped with orange
Into the scratchy depths that smell of cheap cotton candy
And baby powder.
It waits in brown bags in your fifth grade classroom and
Black glitter boxes in the drug store,
Writing your fate in blood when you
Pull your bathing suit on at twelve
And you beg to pull your skin off at fifteen
And all for its presence
Alone.
White exists to suggest a future,
Washing hair removal cream down a drain who’s forgotten you,
Allowing ignorance towards the holes
Plastered through the lobes of your ears.
It’s blank and freeing,
Not without voice
That flees to remind you
How you began
At all:
With Pink on the bra you’ve swapped for skin,
Just a suit with scars in the corners of your belly,
Under your chest,
For you to admire
And for others to question in silence.
You don’t feel that pain anymore,
And cramp reliever isn’t required to
Soothe a hurt
That a Hospital room numbed,
Sleeping on a co-ed floor.
With Blue a color unneeded
To guarantee myself.
Never needing such a Blue to call my mom,
To sign that paper,
For Vinn to find his home in me;
He sleeps without sunny boy’s memories,
With Pink his favorite color,
Waking to make up
For what’s been taken
And that which is now
To be created.
About the Creator
Vinn!
My name is Vinn, I'm a trans guy, I'm a student, and sometimes words fall out of me.
I write about things I've experienced in journal form! I enjoy social justice and digital art, and I currently navigate the world with OCD.
I'm 20!
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