hell’s

i chose

martyrdom

over peace

and i started a war

(with myself).

i took arrows

in the lieu

of the doves

i sacrificed

(in red tears).

i salvaged

a whole city

while the temple

burned

(my body).

i tell myself

i am brave

while the heart

in my chest quivers

(afraid).

i dance

with the devil

while the angels

cry

(for me).

i blow

the ashes of my heart

from my hands

soaked in blood

(feel no more).

i am a resident

in hell

but i visit

heaven

(sometimes).

i chose

to fight

a battle

i will never win

(me vs me).