Heavy Heart

My heart is heavy with so much grief

These thoughts just keep wandering

Every time I think I'm done another one comes along

I feel like the wheels just keep on turning

I'm lost in all these crazy emotions

I feel confused; lost more and more

Feeling these walls just coming closer and closer

I can't breathe the air I feel like I'll die

I feel as though I'm drowning and no one is outside

I feel as if I'm alone in this world

Even though so many are just a call away

I feel as if I'm a burden

A complainer they just handle

Someone they just let babble

I'm lost in my own thoughts, bringing myself down

Feeling helpless and hopeless with each waking hour

I know that I mean something to someone out there but right now its hard to even see if they are there

I'm drowning slowly in this box that is closing

I can't feel my face, I just wake up and pace

Time passes slowly, I don't know if I'm coming or going

I'm difficult to handle and no one sees why

I'm working on my issues as fast as I know how

I want someone to understand, to see me as I am

To understand my sorrow and walk by my side through it all

Knowing I'll get better, it all takes time

Patience is the key here but when will I see mine

I'm feeling like I'm drowning each and every time

I want someone to rescue me from all this pain inside

Time will only prove that I can push on through

My knight in shining armor one day will become true

I just need to push on through this, get to the other side

Things will start to look up when I stop dwelling on this time

My heart is feeling heavy, I'll show it through these words

Feeling as though no one understands me; but through my poetry you'll see

My heart is heave, but I know in time it will heal

Keep pushing forward is all I can hear