Heartbreak

‪Falling out of love was the best, worst thing that’s ever happened to me. I was able to grow and find peace with myself.

Thank you for pushing me to see that I am everything I’ve ever needed at this moment in time.

I appreciate you not caring because it taught me to do so, most of all Thank you for not lifting my mood when I was down.

I didn’t understand it then but now I know, only I can change the way I feel.

Thank you for spending drunken nights away from our bed. I needed the empty space at night to realize I wasn’t crying because you weren’t there,

I was crying because I was.

I needed the eerie quiet to hear my own voice. The one I never knew I had. Not because you didn’t let me speak, but because you never listened.

I realized more often then not, I was right and you were not. Even when my opinion didn’t matter. I found myself alone in sleepless nights.

Thank you for helping me get to her.

She’s beautiful and smart.

She’s funny and courageous.

She laughs from the inside out.

Her light forever shining. Because of you, my match has been struck and that fire has been lit.. forever there to warm my soul.

But the flip side of it is that I want you to know you lost me. For good.

I want you to think of the sunsetting the beautiful red clouds that flood to pink. the majestic orange glow that lies perfectly over the mountain top to show off the majestic Silhouette of its trees. I want you to think of me as if it were your last time seeing the sun go down.

I deserved better.

I deserve better.

I wanna feel loved. I want my heart to dance in my chest like the leaves do on the ground as the wind blows. I want to be the one you see when you think of happiness. I want to feel my heart ache as you walk away. I want to know that you can’t live without me. Miss me when I leave.

Love me.

Adore me.

Need me.

I hope my name reminds you of everything you could of done right.