HE RAPED ME

HE RAPED ME

He stole the word no
Straight from my mouth,
Turned all my courage
And stamped it all out.

I froze like a shadow,
Too frightened to move,
While he took what was mine
With nothing to prove.

I counted the seconds,
I stared at the wall,
I left my own body
And felt myself fall.

Then afterwards silence
Sat heavy on me,
A prison of questions
That would not set me free.

Why did I trust him?
Why did I stay?
Why did my voice
Just vanish away?

But shame was not mine,
The guilt was not too,
The monster was him,
Whatever I knew.

My clothes were not guilty,
My smile was no yes,
My body was never
His right to possess.

He raped me that night,
But I will not remain
The woman he buried
Beneath all that pain.

I am slowly returning,
One heartbeat at a time,
Taking back the life
That was always mine.