hate

i hate you

because of the stars.

i hate you for holding my hand

and stroking my hair

and for the words you whispered

in my ear.

i hate the rage you awaken

within me

like leaping tongues of fire.

i want to hold your face

between my hands

and slap you

(both sides).

in my mind it was you.

it was you who was going to swallow my fears

because you were brighter than my darkness,

it was you who was going to dry the tears

i could not cry

until you left

and now my cheeks are streaked

with black.

am i crazy for hating you for not loving me?