Hang Your Head - Poem

Don’t get use to pretty little things, the ones that make you smile

bright, the ones that make your cheeks blush like a wilted white

rose painted red, I see me the way you see yourself, I’ll strip away my

wounded skin, in my head a wounded voice,

You hate me, I’ll hate me more,

Put your fingers in my mouth, your tongue on my lips, bite the flesh off

my mouth, I’ll bleed on your veins, rip my tongue out, I can’t explain,

Bruise my bones, I won’t complain,

I vomit acid, I swallow your poison, I count to 600, nothing more, I count 200, everything less, I’ll bruise my knees just for you, my brittle bones, I’ll become less and less, just for you, my pain will be your bliss, me and you

A thousand deaths becomes massacre, one death becomes history, I know you want me,

but I don’t want you, my mouth a crochet, your hands a hook,

a day becomes a week, a week becomes a month, a month becomes a year, a year becomes a decade, a decade becomes eternity,

I die a thousand deaths before widow becomes me, become the hatred I love, become the love I hate, I don’t care that I don’t love you, you don’t care that I love you, I long for you, desire me, hurt me, bruise me, bite me, cut me, breathe me, I would live a thousand lives before wed becomes me, hang me, burn me, mark me,

Laugh at me, hurt me with your tongue, your mouth, I’ll be tearing it out with my brittle nails, hang your head, prick my finger on a spinning wheel, you’re lost, find yourself,

Tear yourself apart, hurt yourself like you hurt me, I hurt myself like you hurt me,

become the person you hate most,

Love and hate, hang your head, I’ll become your little puppet and we can both pretend one of us has control here, slam me on broken tables, cross my heart,

Hope to die, bite my tongue, hate yourself because I won’t, love me because I won’t,

I’ll bruise my knees just for you, I’ll swallow your poison.