You held my hand
Tracing around it with your thumb
I have never felt that much comfort in what feels like an eternity.
I felt safe.
As soon as you touched me I felt the walls start to crumble
I never knew it could be this easy, this simple
And for a split second, I thought to myself
I deserve this happiness
Maybe it is finally my time
Maybe this is the calm after the storm
Because every time I looked into those sparkling green eyes it felt right
It felt like the end of a terrible chapter and the beginning of a happily ever after
And for once, just once I let myself believe it.
It was like being underwater and coming out for air
I no longer wanted to be held down by tangled weeds of misery
I wanted to breathe again.
I should have known it wouldn't last
I should have questioned if it was real to begin with
It felt so much like a dream maybe because it was one
You decided to let go of my hand which now I fidget with
Almost as if I was addicted to your touch and couldn't live without it
But I need to
I don't have a choice
But you did.
You chose to stop loving me
You chose to walk away
You decided my walls weren't crumbling at the speed you desired
So instead of waiting, holding my hand and walking me through it
You ran
You have left me with crumbling walls that I cannot build or break
I am left in this vulnerable state
The only cure is you tracing your thumb up and down my hand
reasssuring me that i'm not alone
But I am alone
Your hand isn't for me to hold anymore
Sometimes I doubt it ever was.
About the Creator
Cassidy Kirk
I am a young freelance journalist who also enjoys creative writing as you can see from my work.
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