guard

i try my very best

to forget

the way your

hands,

the size of my face

would hold me

tight

how i would laugh

when you would

spin me around -

like a little girl.

your little girl.

i will vigorously wipe

your beautiful eyes

from my heart

tear the words

you told me

into little pieces

and let your memory

smolder

then dissolve

into a pile of ashes

the wind will blow away.

i let you in.

and you broke me

instead of protecting me,

lied to me all the lies

i wanted to hear.

so i put up a fence

with an iron lock

to forget,

to protect

to rebuild.

nobody is welcome.