Gratitude, Humility, and Surrender

Is that chaga in the corner above

I spent the weekend with others in love

Recovery saved my life and others too

Generational healing was meant for me to do

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My mother got into recovery after me

Now many others have followed and I see

that number growing all the time

My heart has filled with gratitude overtime

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My grandpa jumped out of a window to drink

Grandma had locked him in that night, so when he did fall

He was done due to being injured and that brought him to the brink

To quit that addiction before it took everything, his all

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My children were in the family program growing up

Doesn't mean they too haven't filled a cup

or two. They have benefitted from recovery

as they made the discovery

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They were young when learning

about freedom from alcoholism, during

their fathers struggles, then death at 46 years old

from alcoholism and drug addiction. They told

me that they could see the end, it was sad, and cold.

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There were reports his wife may have overdosed

him as there was enough drugs in the autopsy, dosed

to drop an elephant. My hubby now is recovering

for thirty-five years. He has continued the discovering

of life without drugs and alcohol. He is happy, joyous and free.

With my love, and my recovery, I am free to be me.

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My hubby has four children for a total of seven for he and I

Two of his are in recovery and we stopped by to say Hi.

Then there is one who struggles with addiction, and one has a daughter

addicted, so he and his wife are raising grandson, and granddaughter

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I surrendered a long time ago. In 1978

I got into the family program early and came late

to sobering up in 1980. Well, I was only 26.

Prior to getting into recovery, I took my licks

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My sponsor told me that I needed to write a gratitude list

daily, and she didn't tell me why, but I learned the gist

from another. Gratitude helps with self pity.

Then I was told that for me, humility

means that I have to get even with others

everyone was above me with a few below. Oh brothers

yes, I have 4 left. One in recovery, one trying it out

two substituting addictions and then going back out.

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I love life. I had so much fun this weekend.

I want my life to stay happy, joyous and free

for the rest of my days. Till I am at the end.

Looking forward to more weekends like these - three!