Goodbye x

The avenues of my mind got your car tires all over them

Why are you taking residence in my mind as if it's prime real estate

I'm not your home

You don't belong here no more

I'm not your home

You can't come here no more

I remember when we were driving to your parents' house for me to meet them

It was clear that I was just passing through

I saw where you laid and made your bed

During all our video chats and phone calls

It was clear that I was not meant to stay

with you

Home is where you feel the most comfortable and relaxed

and safe

I used to feel safe with you

Because what is home if not a sheltering place?

And I thought I found a sheltering place in your heart

Turns out it was a rock

and I was blind

from the distance

A dedicated, protective space

To be shielded and sheltered from the onslaught of the world

But you were the onslaught

You treated me like a slut

A home is where you're protected from the darkness, rain, and grime

I'll erase you from my mind with time

What is home if not a recovery zone?

Where you can be who you are and collect all you own

What is home if not a healing place?

Not the place you come to be broken

And that's why I am shutting the door on you.