I haven't moved in decades.
I haven't truly moved
I wake up from nights in a new place
Sleepwalking, sleep wandering
My body's silent cry for something.
I have dreams of bright lights,
Of aching muscles and dizziness
Of dancing too close to you again
Too close to be coincidence.
I wake with bit lips and tired eyes
And memories of strangers
And a feeling that this world is the dream
And my sleep is my reality
And then I still don't move.
I haven't moved in centuries
I think this version of me doesn't know how
This body can't remember what it was meant to do
The soul trapped somewhere it wasn't meant to be.
It's more tiring than dancing, sitting still
Atrophied and ancient from neglect
I will close my eyes and dream again.
Dreams of breath on my neck
Of too-tight shoes that just look so good
Of smiles in stuffy rooms and sweaty air
Warmth I wouldn't tolerate anywhere else
And I will stay there
Until I'm ready to wake up
Or maybe until I fall asleep again.
I am still not moving,
Until reality becomes the dream that feels like me
And I can say to myself,
"I'm ready to go dancing again."
About the Creator
Erin Goulding
current marketing writer, aspiring entertainment writer
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