Glass Half Full

every moment that i think about it

is like another moment spent on a cliff

jump you say jump

but my body can't seem to do it

i handed you a tall glass of me

here

try this

and i was thrown to the ground

shattered

like poison had touched your lips

you swirled it around

played for a bit

decided you were just

too good for this

shit

why had I chosen

you

over me

wheniknewallalongitwasstupidiwasstupidwhywasidoingthistomyself

i couldn't get rid of the

SkaTterD

thoughts

why did i choose

to give you a tall glass of me

just to know i would receive

a glass half empty

Blue and Purple

i can take a beating

i can take a fist

But I can't take the words

That come along with it

i can have blue and purple

baby

make me your canvas

mark my fair skin

i can have a road map made of

scratches and swells

But I can't take the words

that come along

with

it

Clarity

there was an unrealistic expectation i had created from you

i asked for this

i asked for that

it was never enough

how many times do i have to tell you

I am sorry for that.

But can we take a moment,

a second, really

to see what you had done

to me

i am short

i am fat

yes i know

you made it clear

thank you for that

i know I am not the girl on your magazine

hidden under your bed

i get it

i do

you can do better

you made that clear too

look

before you yell at me

again

i am truly

sorry

for

that.

- body shaming isnt a joke