Forgive Me

I am sorry for the person I used to be

She was hurt, hateful & nowhere close to being me

Time & time again the past is thrown in my face

You have no idea how hard I have worked for that girl to be erased

She was selfish, fueled by self loathing & so much pain

Please understand my actions weren't not intended for personal gain

On my hands & knees I had to forgive myself for the things done

If it was a competition you all would have easily won

Now that girl is standing proud & loving being real

So your guilt trips & punishments are things I no longer deserve to feel

I hated me for so very long & truly felt bad

Why wouldn't you want to see me anything but sad

I am sorry... I am sorry

How many more times do I have to say that to all of you

If only you could see & feel everything I have been through

Not an excuse for my actions

Just maybe seeking some compassion

I have a heart & I am no different inside

Just hoping you would see that piece of me has died

I could scream to the heavens all that I have defeated

Yet, it doesn't seem to change the way I am treated

I am on my hands & knees

Forgive me

Please, Please don't make me crawl

Forgive me

I so deeply love you all