For Phil

i know its selfish of me to

to keep holding on so tightly

to you and your former life.

i know speaking you name to keep you alive

grounds your soul here and for you to

move on i need to let go.

I know that its been a year so should try to hold back the tears

so that you can be at peace but i just cant seem to let go of my grief.

Pain and agony are all that i have left of you

the sting in my heart and ache in my soul are prove

you were once here so i hold on to them greedily because i

just cant let you go.

i know that it is time to release you

i know i know i have to let go but

i never lived without you and i'm afraid of the unknown .

i don;t want to know myself without you

this wasn't how this was supposed to go

so i cling desperately to your memory

just to hold on to your soul

because i do not have what it takes to ever let you go.

For my brother who committed suicide on Oct 19 2022

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so that you c

keeps your soul

i kbow