FINDING MY NEW NORMAL

It's been weeks since my world collapse. Joy and laughter ceased and I felt so broken inside. Reminiscing about our road trips, fellowship times, lunch hours and little things that made my world the best place to live in only made me sad. Back then I had so much confidence and energy that I could playfully skip and jump like a child who had no worries. But not anymore. Every step I take forward now is shaky. I feel so weak and confused because everything has changed all of a sudden. I am thrown into a new normal and I had to adjust.

Is this my new beginning? I feel like a chicklet out of its eggshell. I long for God's loving embrace over me as I walk this journey.

My normalcy has been disrupted. I feel like a little kid longing for her mother's lap to cry on. Can it be normal again? Can I feel comfortable again? Only God knows the answer.

I envision myself walking in a valley as it is not a mountain top experience. It is lonely and stressful but I can feel God's grace, empowering me to take one more step forward even though it seems new. I am also realizing my wings as He becomes the wind beneath them. I know that it is only a matter of time and I will fly again.