Feelings

As I wear my heart on my sleeve

I ponder on how & why I act on the way that I feel.

Almost as if I am dictated to do so whenever I feel ... overwhelmed.

Not only do I struggle with my emotions, but I also just don't comprehend

why I feel them in the first place.

I know that I am only human, but I would still like to know the reason behind it all..

From the sobbing & self-loathing, to the rage that burns deep inside,

I even wonder why I feel the excitement that I do when I am happy.

I know that I am only human, but I would like to truly understand the meaning of my Feelings