Feeling Sorry

It was real

It felt like an illusion, a figment

It was too much of a fantasy feeling to be real

But it was real

I didn't want it to happen again

It's gone but some pieces are stamped to my brain

It was real

He felt it too

He wanted it to transpire

I repudiated

I can still feel the hypertrophic scars in my heart

It made me conscious of my heart beat

I didn't want to cause more damage

I was afraid of the black and deserted feeling

Then, he disappeared

It was real

He disappeared

I wished I conceded

All my fears I tried to abscond happened

It was worse than the first

I felt sorry for myself

I wanted him back

I'm still feeling sorry and

I hate myself for it

It was all real