fear of failure

Fear of failing

Of being alone

Fear of not having a kind voice inside, at all.

Fear of silence,

Of crawling things.

Fear of being stuck, being left to think.

Fear of capture,

Fear of heights.

In the night, I realise I fear flying.

Fear of cages,

Of clever traps.

Fear of not knowing the right way to act.

Fear of lies,

And fear of stones

Fear of fragility; of shattered masks.

Fear of anger

Fear of pain;

I fear I try to explain myself away.

Fear of loss

Of wandering too far,

Fear of hesitation

And fear of a broken heart.

Fear of guilt

Of staying too still.

Fear of bruises

And the damage my words deal.

Fear of loud noises

Of onlooking eyes

Fear that happiness is just a guise.

I fear crowds

I fear bright lights.

I fear that I'll never be "just right".

Fear of failure,

Of not being enough

Fear of losing my grip

And spiralling endlessly

I fear not noticing that there is always a way up.

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