Faithless

True love

As in soulmates?

There is no such thing

Love at first sight?

Also bull

All of it

Love can exist,

Love can be built

But it’s not a magical yearning between immaterial souls

No

I’m not convinced

Of soulmates

There is no such thing as a soul

I put a period there

To tell myself its final

The very idea that one non-existent soul might pine after another?

By some mystical, spiritual instinct?

Silly

I insist there is no such thing as soulmates

And it’s easy to believe my disbelief

Because the whole concept is rather absurd

8 billion people on this earth, why should any two be tied together

By mystery?

The concept is nothing but a comfort for lonely people

Who hold out hope

For their happily-ever-after

How can anyone believe in such fairytales?

It is far more sensible to be hopeless

Equal parts pride and despair

That’s reality

But weak minded people will still cling to

That notion

The notion of a special love

I do not believe in soulmates

I do not believe you and I are fated

And I do not believe we ever were

This is what I tell myself

To sooth a particular ache

No

We were never destined

We were never either’s perfect person

I tremble and turn away from the notion

Because why would the stars write such a cruel, mocking joke as

Us

You and I side by side

There’s no such thing as soulmates

And this is what I tell myself

To comfort the wound

And erase the guilt I feel

For blowing my chances with mine

10 years ago now,

I met you then I withdrew

From you, whom I deemed impossible

And that’s why I cannot believe soulmates exist

Because damn me for pulling away from mine!

If there is an eternity after this

And a truth to the notion which I so desperately need to refuse

Then I will choose to sleep it all off

Enduring darkness

Enduring silence

Otherwise, how will I ever stop dreaming my great regret

Over the life I refused to chance

With you?