Failing in my Head
This is a poem about the feelings of inadequacy and failure and fighting the inner demons of self-doubt while you know you're doing fine. This poem focuses on those feeling from a student's perspective, but this feeling can apply to any situation where you feel hopeless when you have no reason to feel so.
"~" signifies a new stanza
Done.
I am,
Completely,
And utterly
Done.
~
The grades
Say,
That I am
Passing.
~
The grades
Say,
That I am
Doing well.
~
But
My mind
Does not.
~
There is,
So much
That is
Going on.
My
Academic mind,
Has
Ceased,
To function.
~
All of these
Thoughts.
Circling around,
In my head.
All of which
Can not
Be true.
But
I
Feel
As if,
They are.
~
I’m overwhelmed.
I’m scared.
Of
All the things,
That
Once
Me down.
~
And,
Like always,
Not meltdown.
Stay
In control
Fight
The demons
Every day.again
Are problems,
Solely,
In my mind.
~
But
In my mind,
They are,
Very real.
The Fear.
The dread.
The panic.
~
Are just
Too much,
Even
When facts.
Do not
Align,
When
The facts say
That I can.
~
I just
Need.
To hold on,
To push past
The lies.
Of the
Insecurities
That are,
Holding
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This poem is featured in one of the many installments of a cute romance series, here is the link to that story: Story Failing in my Head
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About the Creator
Ben Ray
I have poems and series and one shots. I keep a google doc with organized summaries and listings of each story and all of the parts that I've posted.
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