Facade

Facade

4/8/09

Not really knowing if

Or how this will end,

I let it go on

Without interference.

This event has such

Significance that if

You were to try and

Diminish it, you would die.

I feel strong enough,

To kill, to murder.

I know I could cause pain

Beyond any felt before

By me or any one else.

I sit and think

While they pass by me,

And pass me by.

No first thought

In order to give it a second.

They ignore me and

Go on with their lives.

This may sound dark,

I may sound dangerous,

Yet you couldn’t tell any other

Way if I didn’t flat out tell you.

This façade you perceive

Is the one which I weave

So delicately without even trying,

Without even knowing.

You believe what I tell,

You offer help without knowing

The real problem; and you never will.

You wouldn’t understand.

You would just say that

I need to overcome,

I need to let it go.

But you just don’t know.

It’s not some simple

Crack in my nail,

A dent in my car,

Or a scuff on my CD.

It’s a fissure in my soul,

A void in my mind,

A scar on my life.

And you’ll never know.

This true problem that

You’ll never know,

I shall take to my grave

Because you wouldn’t understand.

You’re life may have its

Ups and downs, yet

You are in a different

State of mind.

My state is in the future,

Separated and more,

Developed, more

In tune with the universe.

I don’t intend to

Put you down.

I do not wish

To make you cry.

My only intent is

To show you why

You won’t understand

My true problem.

I’ve given you the clues,

But you don’t have the mind

I do in order

To assemble them.

This dilemma of mine

You’ll never grasp.

It will remain in my head,

Even under the grass.