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A Villanelle of Regret

By SUEDE the poetPublished 10 months ago 1 min read
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How long was I living, loving your lies?

Pupil of pain—ignorance, my disease.

Kill my hope so I might come out alive.

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My prayers fall like ash; my guilt freezes time.

Ghosts of the past paint nightmares from my dreams—

dreams dreamt while living and loving your lies.

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Did you fall from grace or just bide your time?

Did you believe too, or was I naïve?

Kill my hope so I might come out alive.

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When the sun sojourns and in walks the night,

I’m tempted to tame my bestial grief

for time I spent living, loving your lies.

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Regret is a chainsaw buzzing inside,

its hum offering no rest—no reprieve.

Kill my hope so I might come out alive.

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What I fear the most is where I will hide

when the forest expires ‘neath its leaves

All living and loving, rooted in lies.

Kill my hope, so I might come out alive.

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About the Creator

SUEDE the poet

English Teacher by Day. Poet by Scarlight. Tattooed Storyteller. Trying to make beauty out of bruises and meaning out of madness. I write at the intersection of faith, psychology, philosophy, and the human condition.

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