Most mornings my alarm goes off, and it’s time to rise and ✨ shine
Now I roll over and take my sleeping pills, cause asleep is the only time I’m fine.
Realistically that can only work but so much, so I try other ways to cope
Anything to give me peace; anything to give me hope.
I’ve tried hanging with my peeps sometimes; but my laughs are just for show
Turns out I’ve become a pretty good actor, cause the real me no one knows
I drink or maybe get high once in a while. So I can just for a time be numb
Being alone with just myself, that’s when all the feelings they come.
Swarming around inside my head, everything at the same time
Anything… I would do anything, for my feelings to just be mine
“But if wishes were horses, all beggars would ride”, the first in line I would be
Unfortunately though, it just isn’t so; with my pills once again I’ll just sleep.
About the Creator
Alaine Hay
Hesitantly optimistic, I feel my inspiration from my pain. An anxious, bipolar single mom, trying to somehow raise a well rounded teenage girl! Lol.Trying to gain wisdom through my downfalls, and spread hope through my success, despite them
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