everyone but me

I blame the lazy and the poor

I blame the billionaires more

I blame the politicians and the corrupt,

“The systems”, I yell “we must disrupt”

But when oh when

Will I finally see

I’m fighting a mirror

and the real problem is me.

I eat dead bodies and fail in health

I poison my mind with dystopian filth

I poison my vessel with alcohol and aching

Racing past each day on caffeine and craving.

I take my pharmaceuticals like a good girl

Ignoring dissonance is easy when you keep popping pills.

I’m so very unhappy

I need help, don’t you see?

But it’s easier to keep blaming

Everyone but me.