Everyday begins the same
Exactly the same
every day
I try to dream again
(about that
Place)
A crisp salty splash
A warm
Flowing water
Sand creeping up my thighs
You by my side,
Yeah, that’s nice,
That’s real fucking nice.(get closer to me, please, with that brown hair curled by your ears and deep deep deep water blue eyes)
You look good,
And even beautiful
I can’t tell you that,
I’m
Your best friend
And that’s weird.
Every day is the (fucking same!!!!!!).
I wake up,
You are not there.
I remember that nice day at the beach,
Like it was yesterday,
But, well,
It wasn’t.
I’m so fuckin’ depressed
I can’t even dream anymore.
My body aches
My breath is pulsing with warbling
Waves
My piercing fingers hurt
As I learn my body isn’t reacting
Correctly to any sort of chemical bonds
I try to instigate or instill.
I say to the mirror,
“I’m fucking cool, man,” and then
Curse my tears, they are too feminine.
I’m here man, I long to hear from you just once more.
But it’s all the fuckin’ same,
Every second of every minute of every slow Goddamn hour of every shitty, horrible, missed day
I tell myself, be a man,
Be
A
Fucking
Man
And my painful tears push me to sleep,
I’m so damn sorry, I’m
Dying
I am
Not what my father wanted,
No, nor you.
About the Creator
Melissa Ingoldsby
I am a published author on Patheos.
I am Bexley is published by Resurgence Novels here.
The Half Paper Moon is available on Golden Storyline Books for Kindle.
My novella Carnivorous is to be published by Eukalypto soon! Coming soon
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Comments (8)
Very expressive and emotionally charged!
Painful. Powerful. Artfully told!
This brought me to tears as I know that feeling only too well
Brilliant!
Nice poem!
Outstanding and heartfelt!!!💖😊💕
Excellent!
Love the minimalist style of this, and here for you sis