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I don't know what to say so I mumble under my breath,

I don't know what to do when when I'm thinking about death.

I'm scared about losing my life,

In this battle against me, myself and I.

I don't want to wake up in the mornings now,

I'm just so drained of life and I don't know how.

I know that things people heal with time,

But it's been over a year since I've been alright.

It all just feels like a dream,

A dream that's simply just obscene.

Some nights I just cry myself to sleep,

I'm helpless in life so I weep.

It's not that I don't people here to help me,

But no amount of help can seem to make healthy.

At times I think about committing suicide,

But that's not really the way I wanna die.

I know I've said a lot things I probably don't mean,

But I'm just not as stable as I've been.

I really don't know what to do or say anymore,

I really don't want to feel this way anymore.