Emotional Rollercoaster

Bullet

I want to know... something... being normal is overrated...

So why push the trigger of the 9 mm

And aim it straight at my heart?

Are you just gonna shoot or miss at my heart?

I need to protect myself,protect my family...

Do I need to leave and run?

I need to know.... why push our love?

Is it a test? Is it a challenge?

I need to run from my demons and the reaper

before it ruins me

and makes my kids think their mommy is weak....

Do I have to run from yours too? I loved you…

I protected you and I feel like all.

For it does not matter what the struggle.. I feel like I'm making it worse...

Being in the situations I've been in has made me guarded against even myself...

Do I restart over or push through and keep the love going...

I love you with all my heart

But you have hurt me and made me feel what the voices in my head tell me I am...

I gotta keep myself calm...

Run with the wind...

Get my fresh air...

Keep my demons away from me so the reaper doesn't end up taking me

and making me lose my kids permanently...

I need to catch my breath...

Say it is ok...

Feel safe in my skin...

Relax my love...

Deep breaths...

Go for a walk...

Get away from the situation for a while...

I'm a survivor...

It might hurt like hell now

But you've been through it once before

you will get through it again...

Shoo that demonic aura away....

shoot it in the heart, don't let people mess with you...

You are a good person...

Deep down you know that your walls are blocking your positivity...

reach out feel the sun in your arms...

Let the warm embrace of the sun back in...

No more dark gloomy nights...

Keep your bright sunshine self out...

I've been through pain numerous times...

This too shall pass.....

Take a breather!

As you learn it's ok!

to not have someone not constantly there with you...

You are a strong

Independent woman.

Don't forget that...