Wealth is a lot of free space, Andy Warhol said.
A new way to look at all the things
I’ve been missing.
My inner emptiness is the speaker
To amplify the sound of my favorite music.
It’s my room to breathe,
To learn and grow at natural pace.
My empty spaces
Are those pockets of time
When nothing seems to happen
Yet those are the moments to catch up,
And complete what has been left unfinished.
I’m beginning to understand
Why less is more
By observing how one tries
To fill up those empty spaces
With just anything.
People collect junk to not feel poor
Or collect low-quality people
To not feel lonely.
Much worse, they coerce others
Into filling those gaps
Which, perhaps, were meant to be,
At least for now... or forever.
Like holes in Swiss cheese
Or fresh bread.
Instant fixes won’t stand the test
Of clear and quiet —
What they need is mess and noise.
Those people are never satisfied
And keep feeling lonely and poor
No matter how much attention they get
Or how picture-perfect their lives are.
For some, of course, it doesn’t look pretty.
I feel bad about sloppy hoarders
Both of affections and things... yuck.
If only all that could be washed away
To expose the perfection
They’ve been hiding
Mistaking it for lack.
I’m guilty of some of the above...
Such as collecting small nicknacks
Because I can’t afford a big home,
Or wasting time on small things
Because big tasks are so difficult.
But I still don’t understand such things
As “too much makeup”
Or “too much money”.
After all I’m afraid I’m ugly
And all that has to be painted over,
As much as possible.
Yet recently it hit me
In a written text,
A novel I heard a fragment of.
Sensations and impressions
Zoomed in, so very graphic,
Like extreme color saturation —
Or, as my first association was,
Too much makeup.
Ouch.
With finances, though, it’s murky.
Destiny, I dare you!
Show me what it’s like to have too much.
Show me the money.
Don’t know how long I’d have to wait —
Or toil to make that happen, some day
If ever.
So what if I let go?
It doesn’t mean giving up
Or tossing what I have —
But loosening my grip
Enjoying what is here now
While it lasts.
Not needing anyone to fill the gaps
Of insecurity and grief ...
Just let it be.
My inner emptiness
Is the way to receive
The goodness landing in my lap
Once I stop chasing/demanding/expecting
What I had hoped would make me happy
And let that happiness find me,
Feeling finally at home
Because I had spared enough room for it.
June 17, 2021. N.B.
About the Creator
Nica Breeze
I started writing fairy-tales before I could spell the letters right, at age 6. My fiction and poetry are about one’s private world and love-hate relationship with reality.
I emigrated to America from Eastern Europe, found home in Montana.
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