
After the death of my father
Before the world became illegible
Convinced that the pain was selfish, small, childish
Determined to explain it nonetheless
Everyone resents the annihilation of a library of possible worlds
For chances to apologize, or explain, or remember, or imagine, or understand
Governments would fall, worlds would reinvent themselves, laws would be deleted
However, death will not let any of these wishes trounce the skeptics—they can’t be
It is not impetuous or juvenile to lament that, to struggle to accept that the story
Just ended there, with that other human’s disappearance
Knowing that you cannot add, or subtract, revise or revisit
Locates you in a territory that your map does not match
Maneuvering through a new narrative that is too familiar to be fresh
Never again will you be who you were, when the dead could still cross your path
Or call you out of the blue, or think again about that clumsy attempt to make amends
Poverty of this kind, in a country you know, under a ruler you dislike
Quickly reveals that you had better get some things sorted out, for you too are ending
Race, then, to leave some intelligible trace of yourself behind
Sluff off the aspirations and the desperation and the vanity
Take your time, mindful always of the fact that it need not be perfect, but it must be true
Understanding and being understood are all that alienates us from other forms of life
Vivaciously, unapologetically, with the smiling abandon of someone dancing naked, alone
Watch yourself: sort a set of symbols into a transparent representation of what it is like to be
X-ray your own soul and put the results on display, translated into phonemes by a phantom
You will be finished soon, and the manuscript will be tantalizingly proximal and impossible to touch
Zenith of being mortal animals is the successful conquest of silence by one, strangely familiar voice
About the Creator
D. J. Reddall
I write because my time is limited and my imagination is not.
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