We deserved a better ending than the one we were given,
Better than the one we ourselves had written.
I prayed for you not sin against me
But even when you did
You knew by God and I you would
always be forgiven,
I can't seem to exist in resentment.
I've tried a thousand times
To hate you when you've looked me in the eyes
And just casually lied.
How much I've convinced myself that I love you
should be a punishable crime.
I thought I knew how you felt,
That was until I saw you in the arms of someone else.
The degree of pain you've brought is intolerable,
I want my memory to be permanently stained on you
like it's not washable.
I must've been a temporary distraction
Before you decided you were done and went missing in action,
I prefer face to face relinquishment
I know that's probably too old-fashion.
I keep reflecting
Trying to see where I went wrong,
The coldest melody would be you
If you were miraculously translated into the form of a song.
You're inconsistent,
So I started to look at myself different and create some distance,
From the woman I once was
To the many women I transformed into
for you.
I've learned to tone down my shivers,
I can control my tears to where they flow gentler
than the calmest river.
When the day comes and you
tell your closest companions,
"I really miss her,"
Embrace the sting in your throat from the liquor,
And when they tell you,
"It's best if you just try to forget her,"
You'll take another drink,
Then you'll realize the thought of having lost me is more
strenuous to swallow and that the glass to your lips
With all the bitterness it contains,
Somehow has a sweeter taste.
With erasable writing utensils, I sketched our departure time and time again,
But the entire time I didn't know you were writing in pen.
I was the initiator for our beautiful beginning,
But you were the author of our odious ending.
About the Creator
Neish
Hi! I’m Aneisha. I'm the author of the blog--We'll Talk About It! It releases every Tuesday. You can also find some short stories and poems I used to write, while you're waiting for the next blog post. <3
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