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Eat up.

Get skinny

By Jen PhillipsPublished 3 years ago • 1 min read
Eat up.
Photo by Kenny Eliason on Unsplash

I don't fit in anywhere.

I’m too skinny to be considered fat but I'm too thick to be considered skinny.

What the fuck does that even mean? Answer: I have no idea.

To eat but not to eat.

Eat a salad. Learn to eat a burger every so often. Drink but not to much.

Like every girl I've struggled with my body image since I was 12. I'm now 30. For 18 years I've had a struggle with the way my body looks.

As a teen I was underweight, I became an adult and struggled with weight gain in my late teens and early 20s and then lost it.

Then again it is back plus some in my mid-20s. Now I'm struggling to get back down.

The difference imman adults with adult problems and it's not as easy to get the weight off when dealing with stress and emotions.

The world is evil. I never got a chance to find me and love me for who I am. Always have to be the most perfect body. It's hard to keep up with society.

Trends, fads and society all have their hands in womens body and like to tell them how to handle their bodies.

Which sucks because I never got a chance to love me. Now I'm 30 and have to learn now. Instead of 18 years ago. When I first started to see my body.

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    Written by Jen Phillips