E.

green

they say the grass is

greener on the other side.

but here i am, sat

behind the white fence,

greener with envy than the

grass will ever be.

(04.03.18)

the only one i miss

my stomach

is nothing but

cheap coffee

my internet history

is nothing but

queer love poems

and my mind

is nothing but

you and i

and you and i

and you and i

i want

a fender stratocaster

with a leather strap

i want a loft apartment

with a beautiful view

but most of all

i want you

back here with me

holding you

and holding you

and holding you

when your hand brushed mine

for the first time

that day in november

my heart fluttered

i wondered

what would my father say

if he knew i felt this way

about you

about us

now here i am

i don’t know how it started

or why it ended

all i know is

you’re the only one i miss

(14.12.15)