i look up
to nothing,
but
endless blue
i try to
make it back.
but,
i get pulled
further
and further
down.
i said i tried
to make it back,
i lied.
but,
how am i to try
when i
don't control
the strings?
these invasive
thoughts
of trying,
cloud my mind
as i
continue to
sink.
i guess,
it's less like
a sink,
more like
a forceful pull
but,
i'm not
being pulled up
oh no,
anything but.
down into
the "depths of despair".
i try,
well,
i want to try
but,
trying seems as
useful as
putting a clean
fork in the
dishwasher
and,
trying feels like
walking up
a down
escalator
but,
trying is all i have.
so,
i look
back up
seeing that
blinding blue,
and
i look down
at nothing
but
deathly darkness
but,
i don't
hold the strings
or
run the game.
so,
instead,
I cut the strings
I end the game
and
I lunge myself
up.
I fight
and
I fight.
but,
I struggle
feeling like
a knight
without
armor
or,
a shark
without
teeth.
and then,
after what seems to
be like
years, I breathe.
emerging through
the surface,
I am free.
but,
free doesn't
mean done.
I'm nowhere
near done.
the real battle
has just begun
to stay
afloat
and
to live
is to try.
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